Esther Meroño and the Major of Doom

I was just putting my poetry portfolio together for this semester and I can't decide whether my poetry is getting better or worse. My professor this semester was much more critical than any other creative writing teachers I've had, but she didn't run me down as hard as other kids in my class during workshop and I have a lot of checks and some check pluses on the poems she's handed back to me. Is that good? Sometimes I wish there was some kind of objective machine you could run your poetry through that would tell you whether your stuff was any good or not and thoroughly explain why. I'm going on five years of college with a focus on poetry this whole time and I still don't know what good poetry is. Out of the 15 or so poems, I don't feel like there's really anything epic. Not in the Homer sense, more like Dickinson epic. I guess I did find out I'm prone to punchlines. That's at least helpful.

I have this terrible feeling that come May I'm going to find myself holding my bachelor's degree and wishing it was all of my tuition money instead so I can run away and become Indiana Jones.

Sometimes I Just Don't Say Hi

People I thought about this week:

Nada
Anne
Tom-I really really need to give you back your humidifier.
Davey
Reetu
Milo
Debbie
Jessica

I still remember. Even if I've disappeared. I'll be back soon.